My definition of Love

23 06 2009
i love you
If I were to ask,  How would I define Love? well Love is..
  1. Unselfish

True and Loyal
Does not sees wrong
It has no end
It should be Real

According to the Bible…
“Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.” (1 Corinthians 13:4-8)

True love will always be kind. True love will never flaunt itself for attention. True love will never be jealous of others and their accomplishments.

True  love will always be thinking of others and their welfare. True love will never rejoice or wallow in evil and sin.

jejeje.. na22han ko lang po yan thru my friends.. because i really saw them really hurt, cries on my shoulder, whining like a baby.. i hope it won’t
happen to me.. Pero sabi nga nila.. Hindi ka matututong magmahal kung di ka masasaktan.
I just wish for lesser pain.. if may painkiller lang and pagiging heartbroken, sana ok lang kahit araw-araw tayong masaktan
Drinking liqour, is not a solution, it could even make it worst. Sana if Einstein can hear me, i probably tell him, “ei, pare, gumawa k nga ng painkiller para sa mga heartbroken kong kaibigan”… hihihihi…

PEACE mga friendsssssssss… ♥




16 03 2009

In life, its not always the good things to motivate us, i just realized that even pain, hurts, embarassments, hardships, discouragements andb failures can also motivate us to dream Big. 

I strive really hard so i can finish school. Praise God,  was able to finished college.  Now, I am working as an EA (Executive Assistant), and i am striving for more. Some would say, i should be contented, because, im receiving my pay in full and yet still single. But i told them “NO. I want MORE.”

This “I want MORE” thing ( as i like to call it), was driven by a hurtful, and a heartbreaking statement.

I was so kind of disappointed with how our relatives treated me and my family. They always look down on us. They say, “we can’t achieve anything, we can’t find job even if we have a degree of our own, just because we do not have the so-called “PERSONALITY”. This hurtful statement came from my father’s elder sister (my Aunt).  

When i first heard this, i was so ashamed of myself. Am i really that ugly? I know that I am not so BEAUTIFUL as they are (as what they claimed) but i know deep inside of me, what most important is that you know how to deal  with other people and  that you know what’s good for you and that you have the guts to change everything on yourself for something better, not for worse.

I really tried hard to pleased her, but really, there’s a  truth in a cliche that ” You cannot please everybody”. How ironic?  I might please everybody in my neighborhood, but not her.”

Im so angry and i am FULL of this foolishness. I call this foolishness because, firstly, everybody is so busy making lives, while they are so busy making rumors (chizmiz). Secondly, why not leave us alone, and let our lives in peace, (of courSe, only if they don’t just sit there, relaxing and busy thinking, who’s next in line? { susunod na itsi-tsizmiz}. Thirdly, why cant they, just be happy for us, everytime we achieve something {eventhough, its killing them}. Lastly, I hate it, everytime i feel, im hating my own bloodline, all i want for my entire clan, is that, we stay happy together, sharing things/ ideas & times, and helping each other not only in good times  but also in bad times.
I am really hurt, until now. I thought of writing it here in my blog, hoping someday, she can read this (hahahaha), and hopefully, she’ll asked someday for forgiveness. We are always open for forgiveness, but please, be sincere enough and i hope, its not too late.

But thanks to her, we are moving on our own now, striving for MORE. I just really want to pray that someday, she will come to her senses and someday, she will be knocking on our door and say, “Hey, Im sorry. I didn’t mean to be rude.”


moving on

24 08 2008

I did the best I can to inflict the least harm as I bob and weave thru life. Which made me wonder just what I was doing with him yet again? Was that love? I wondered… With all the right men around, what am I doing with the wrong one? My friends told me “You’re just fooling yourself”. “But I love him.” I told them. I waited for a reply, no one answered, and then I realized they are all staring at me. A friend told me one day, “My Friend, move on”. “How”, I told myself. When after all these years, I was still dazzled by his smile and memories. I still didn’t understand. I don’t know maybe its just always wanting what I can’t have. Maybe it’s not knowing what I want. There was a time when I could have him, but I let him go, I didn’t tell him how I … Well, he is special. It is what I felt for him from the beginning. He likes the best of everything. And I loved him. And I’d always be there for him. But, the real pain is, I was a way station for him, a pit stop on the way to something better. It hurts when he left me. And hurt more every time I missed him, because I know he’d never be back again. I remembered the day, it was cool and breezy, and a light rain was falling, pinging off the tin roof. He gave me a light kiss, hen he turned away. He looked back and waved goodbye. And as the rain was falling, my tears were falling too. That day, as he finally stepped out of my life, it reminds me what a fool I was, Or am. And I’d keep that way… But.. Thanks God, I finally realized we are not meant to be. I lost him, and he lost me. I think that’ life is… I know everybody would agree on that and am totally healed now. Although, I can’t deny it to myself that, I missed him so.